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I cry in the shadows. I only ache and feel pain at night when I know the world has closed its eyes. I long to blurt out all of the feelings, emotions, and thoughts that come to mind but I fear someone might hear. I’ve become silenced by my own alter ego because it doesn’t want a bad reputation. No one needs to know my mind because it’s too delicate and difficult of a place to understand, even I am still sorting and solving. *chuckled* who am I kidding? Who have I been fooling? Im the same person I’ve always been. I may try to change the clothes, the words, and the actions but my mind will never change. I will always an

I see the flame, I feel the burn but not the pain. I’ve learned to block out the feelings I don’t need but I forgot they’re not all bad. I forgot what it feels like to love and hurt. I was so blinded by the pain I wished it all away, the good and bad. They say be careful what you wish for but I suppose it was the hurt wishing. My mind can only be logical and it seems short term in matters of my heart. This heart just wanders wherever it pleases and it causes trouble snooping around where it shouldn’t, building on unstable grounds a foundation to build a home. What’s wrong with me? I have become too controlling. I

I was caught in my dreams just passing the time not thinking much of how much we were wasting away. There were days we may not have saw eye to eye but I looked up to you like you were the sky. You were my world and I couldn't see how I'd survive without you. You don't know how bad my stomach turns now when I think of the paradise days. You don't know how bad I want to come down the stairs and turn back the time to see you standing there like it was all some nightmare. You don't know how bad it feels to wake up each day with the world still moving and you're not standing here. I love Him but I just can't help but question his reasoning and his

Just know that words wont raise the bar, words with friends is what I do because friends with words have failed me, there's nothing in empty –promises that leave nothing but meaningless kisses from warm summer nights that felt so right they belonged to us just like when you said trust but what a bust. I should've seen the flashing lights like a crashing satellite, I couldn't be your light, you couldn't be the knight in shining armor that I dreamed but nothing's what it seems that's why fairytales are left in dreams, and that's where you'll be in my memories. I don't want more than peace and silence to clear this conscious, it wasn't all

Everything is falling around me Nothing will let me be Everything disturbs this sleep. These walls seem to be seeping with water, Breaking down with each step I falter. I must learn to stand alone; There's nothing left to call a home. Everyone is leaving But I can't help thinking There's a way, some way To make it through today To live to see tomorrow Getting past sorrows of yesterday. Words linger that your lips once said And they won't stop ringing in my head… I wish it were all dead. I wish that this heart was fed With the true love it needed, Not the pain that failed to be heeded. I thought this pain secreted, Bu